everything is pretty scary!!!

i sit here. surrounded by lots of people.so much noise all around me.yet i feel so so alone.it never used to be like this.never, never!!!i used to think my life had it all.fun..family..clothes..friends..music..fun..school..books.. fun..friends..hangout..fun..but those days are long over..now i seem to need more...more of everything..more of responsiblities mixed with all the fun and all the music and all the learning and all the friends..i rili want more.